Monkeys On My Back

Ever had one of those weeks when you wonder what might have been? I'm having one. Sometimes I think about my life and all the things Ive done and, what it would be like if I had made different choices. occassionally it happens when you meet someone really cool, or reap the consequences of a bad decision. More often than not, it just happens from time to time. Like when I think about people I have left behind, if it was right. I suppose it was if I'm not sorry, but every now and again, I regret 'all' the choices I have made. Some because it was the best of a bad lot, or me being dumb, mostly because I wasnt strong enough to make the wiser choice. All the could haves plague me. I know I'm not the only person that feels this way but, of course no one else admits to it.
"The man who views the world at 50 the same wayhe did at 20 has wasted 30 years of his life."-- Mohammed Ali

Another Day Has Come And Gone Away

Sometimes life seems so surreal to me. I had surgeryon my foot last Thursday and have pretty much been house bound since. I feel like Ive lost a whole week of my life; all the things I could have, should have been doing, and now all week less to do them in. I despise wasting my time, and I'm pretty sure that's what I'm doing.Life is to short for all the things I want to do, people I want to love, places I want to go, friends I want to make. being in the house makes me all wonky, all crazy in the head. Like what if I died tomorrow and the last thing I did was play a video game. What a waste that would be!!! Life is like an hourglass glued to the table. Somedays I wish I could do it all over again, not so much because I would change things, but to just be able to live all that life again. I gotta get out of this house!!!!!!!
"Not how long, but how well you have lived is the main thing. "Author: Seneca

Devil With The Blue Suit On

Any of you who have read my blog, know that I did NOT vote for Bush. I dont agree with him and I dont like him, I think he's a warmonger. Recently I watched Farenheit 9/11, and now I must say, I am appalled by our President elects behavior. Ive always thought the war on Iraq a bad distraction from the real terrorist, (Bin Laden), but after watching that show I know I'm not the only one. Furthermore all this nonsense with Real Id and Homeland Security's Director, I feel like I'm living in Nazi Germany. It makes me sad to think our President started a war with Iraq, just to take the attention off his illegal dealings and trickery.

"Did you hear that we're writing Iraq's new Constitution?Why not just give them ours? We're not using it anymore."-- Jay Leno

American Psycho

I had surgery on my foot yesterday. This will be the fourth time in a little over a year. Needless to say I'm just a little bent over it. My mom was supposed to take me in for the surgery and help me out at home in the afternoon. Instead, she calls me the night before and says she made a lunch date with her sister for noon. I had previously suggested to her to make it at one so she wouldnt be late, but I was annoyed b.s. ensued and I finalyy said my husband would take the day off work to help me. Naturally, she is mad at me for that as well. Well after my surgery, we realized that my husband would have to go get prescriptions filled for me, no big deal right? I asked my mom to come out in case I had any trouble, but she couldnt, once again due to her sister. Now to be fair her sister does live out of town, but after sitting at my house for three hours unable to even get myself a drink I wasnt feeling very fair, nope, not fair at all!!! So I went all mad dog and called my mom screechin and howlin like a banshee. Who would of thought, it didnt go over well. So now my mom isnt speaking to me(duh), not talking to my best friend, AND I have the nagging suspicion that my aunts arent speaking to me either. My mom tells them everything, I'm still waiting for my dad to call and put the smackdown. (sigh) I think mebbe I've lost my mind.
"Be nice. You're just jealous because the voices only talk to ME."

Babies, LIes, And Videotape

Ive spoken about my best friend "Cody" before on several occassions. Well today the end of an era finally came.Let me explain. For over a year now the three of us (me , my husband and her) have been talking about finding a church. We werent sure what kind of church, but we were all pretty adamant we go together. Well, about a month ago my husband and I finally found 'The Church', the one suited to us and my friend, or so I thought. I rushed to tell Cody the good news, we had a church, a good one. She acted suitably excited and I asked when she was going to go. Cody missed her first service because her papaw died, which is perfectly understandable. So, we made plans for us and her, and her four kids to go today, Mothers Day. It seemed like everything was right. Then last night her boyfriend,(married boyfriend), says that THEY are going to church somewhere else, after she had made this commitment to me for church and lunch. Naturally I was angry, since I thought I was being thrown over for her slightly less than useless boyfriend. I came home, stewed, and went back to have it out with her. Now just for the record, I normally dont like fighting, but I felt this slight warranted some words. So I go back. She tells me she threw him out, because she knew how bad he hurt my feelings and that we were still going to church together. It seemed truthful enough. I told her I would be over at 9( early yes, but she's always late). I get to her house at 9 am the babies are in pj's eating breakfast. She comes thundering down the stairs sleepy eyed, in her jammies, and says to me "Dont look at me like that I just woke up". Now Id like to mention that her boyfriend had made it back at this point, and they had SO obviously spent the night 'Making Up' that she had over slept, breaking her promise to me. I cant live this way, its to hurtful and to harmful, but what will I do without the only friend Ive known for 10 years, I hope the kids do allright without me.

Piglet sidled up behind Pooh.'Pooh,' he whispered.'Yes, piglet?''Nothing,' said Piglet,taking Pooh's paw.'I just wanted to be sure of you

Pete and Repete Were in a Boat.............

My husband saw this email on a website today and I thought it should be posted here.

In light of the many perversions and jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke, it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.
Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her "How could God let something like this happen?" (regarding the attacks on Sept. 11).
Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She said, "I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives.
And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?"
In light of recent events...terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found recently) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK.
Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school.
The Bible says thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK.
Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We said an expert should know what he's talking about. And we said OK.
Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.
Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with "WE REAP WHAT WE SOW."
Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell. Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.
Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.
Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.
Are you laughing?
Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they WILL think of you for sending it. Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us.
Pass it on if you think it has merit. If not then just discard it... no one will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in!!
"Become the change you want to see" --Oprah Winfrey
"Be more concerned with your character than with your reputation. Your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think you are."
-- Dale Carnegie