Welcome Home Fonz.

Here we are again. Somehow I feel like Ive come full circle since I started this blog. This blog came into being after my grandma passed away. In her honor, and now my friend, my uncle has passed away. In the last few days since his passing, Ive realized that, maybe, my coping skills arent the hottest moves in town. Im not so sure Ive ever really coped with anything. Well at least not for a very long time. What is coping anyway? What's normal; when it comes to the death of a loved one. My Uncle was a very dear friend and now that he's gone I have all these icky feelings inside me. I dont just have icky feelings though. When I first got clean three years ago, it was like waking up from a long sleep where I finally saw what was really important in life. Once again, in loss, I have a fresh reminder of all things that are truly important. So today Uncle Tim, although you are gone, I salute you on on teaching me in death, as you did in life. Thank You.

Coming Home

I've spent my whole life searching for that special someone. A person that actually cared about how 'I' feel, and what matters to me. If you find that person, wouldnt you do whatever it took to make it work? I mean not anything scandalous, but really put yourself into it yes? I dont think you can ever love someone 'to' much? What is too much? Maybe you can 'do' too much or take too much, but never love to much. Not to my way of thinking......finding that special person makes where ever they are home.




Why do we have to wait for special moments to say nice things or tell people we care about them? Randy K. Milholland, Something Positive Comic, 12-09-05Webcomic pioneer

Play Ball!

Ever felt like all of life was a game? Each person manipulating another to get the desired end result? You work people, cajole, entice. In the end the winner is the one who played the game best. Lately, that's how I feel, it's all just a big game, my whole life, moving pieces, being moved. All I can say is I hope Ive learned enough to play the game well.



Of course the game is rigged. Don't let that stop you--if you don't play, you can't win. Robert HeinleinUS science fiction author (1907 - 1988)

Yerafannywashingpoofter

This has to be the most incredibly boring day ever. Nothing to do til my baby gets off work. Sigh. Longest day of the year, waiting. Seems like Im always waiting for him. Wont last forever though. It cant rain all the time. I need something to smoosh. Better yet, CHOCOLATE! In an angry consumer driven world, my greatest wish is chocolate and yet, I have none. How is this even possible?





If not actually disgruntled, he was far from being gruntled. P. G. WodehouseBritish humorist & novelist in US (1881 - 1975)

Changing of the Guard

Welcome to the New Year! I have no doubt that this year will bring many new and interesting things into my life. Some good, some bad, but never boring. Ever since I came to myself, and got clean, he only New Years resolution Ive had is to enjoy every minute of my life! I want to grab hold of the good things and never let go. The bad things, well, I hope they just slide off my back like water. Everyday is a new day to be thankful for. Even the ugly things in life are just learning experiences to be greatful for. I know all the mistakes Ive made and, hopefully, learned from, have brought me to where I am now. I would like to think, it's a better place, with better people. Many things have changed for me in the last year, new job, renewing old friendships, starting new ones. I just hope that I never take the good things in my life for granted, because I know, sometimes they go away. Even when you dont want them to. Today, Im most greatful for an awesome kid, a passionately loyal best friend, and a boyfriend that makes my toes curl and makes me feel special. I hope that you all have a blessed New Year!




Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in getting up every time we do. ConfuciusChinese philosopher & reformer (551 BC - 479 BC)

Betty and The Boaby

Finally! Christmas is over!!! I know that may seem a very scrooge like attitude, but really it's not. It isnt that I dont love Christmas, I do. All the time spent with family and friends. It's all the traffic and rude people in the stores that I cant stand. Once I get past New Years I can relax again. I was supposed to be mocing out of my parents house, but unfortunately it looks like I wont be. My boyfriend says it's too soon for us to move in together, even though, he had every intention of spending the night with me, or having me spend the night with him after I moved. What's the difference you ask? Honestly, I dont know. Other than where my toothbrush resides....Cant make him though; can I? Ohh well, Im determined to have the whole enchilada, so Im just going to keep hanging in there til he's ready. Hope he gets back on the horse soon....



Poets have been mysteriously silent on the subject of cheese. G. K. ChestertonEnglish author & mystery novelist (1874 - 1936)

The Next Shite Will be a Hedgehog

Well, I screwed up. I let myself get involved in someone else's affairs and it's coming back to bite us both in the a$$. I feel deeply grieved for my part in the whole mess, seeing as it has caused a dear friend more troubles. I would fix it if I could, but I think Ive done enough.....I just pray that all will work out to her happiness in the end. That's all I really wanted anyway...



Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake. Victor HugoFrench dramatist, novelist, & poet (1802 - 1885)